Last Train to Clarksville

Yesterday's U/S went well, no cysts, although I'm wondering how he was able to get in and out of the room in under 30 seconds flat...$160 please. Stopped on the way home to get the Clomid Rx filled, and par for the course, its no longer covered. $70 for 10 pills. But, I'm not going to waste energy on the money issues. This is the last time we're doing this, I need to put my energies elsewhere.

We got an email this morning announcing the early arrival of a friend's baby. I'm happy for them, they are a great couple, I even sent a way cool baby/mother gift, but I feel so detached. Numbness has become my friend. That'll come in handy starting Friday when the Gonal-F shots begin anew.

Its interesting to me that I only sound this cynical on-line. To the real world I live in, I remain hopeful and willing to do what it takes, despite the hardships. Inside, I'm planning child-free vacations. A true Gemini, I am.